where I am at today

Ok let me start this blog on where I am now. I am 25 years old, I have a GED,& I am self taught mostly. I am married with 3 children. We have been granted the use of a relatives house. My husband is a Disabled Vet and my youngest child is developmentally delayed. We make around 25k a year. The house we live in is Old and has no insulation. All of my windows and doors leak. We do not have Central Heat and Air. The 3 floor heaters we do use have ran my electric bill up to $405.00. We don't have a running vehicle. I walk to do our errands or pay someone to give me a ride.NO one actually took the time to teach me to drive so I only have a permit. There is no drivers Ed in our town. We still have an original walmart here. Yes we are on government programs to help us survive. Now You and I can read that and say poor thing life sucks. I prefer to look on the bright side. What is that? Yes my husband is disabled but since he can no longer go out to work he stays home with the kids so I don't have to pay child care. My education while traditionally lacking is advanced in other area's due to my love of learning and reading. My youngest son is behind developmentally but he is a miracle. He was born 12 weeks premature only 2.6 lbs. The doctors gave him a 50% chance of survival.Then they said he might be blind do to prolonged use of the ventilator as a baby. He only has a lazy eye. He is the same size as his older sister. both of whom are considered small by society standards but we are proud of them. they are 8 months apart and as of Jan 23,2010 they will both be 3 years old wearing 24 month clothing. Their small size doesn't bother them or hold them back. They climb and get into more than I like. My kids are amazing and fighters. My oldest is 7 and is now home schooled. He learns fast and got bored in school during reviews. They wanted to kick him back a grade for Being Emotionally Immature. I asked what they meant by that and was told he wouldn't sit still and shut up. He was on the AB honor roll. We brought him home and he is doing work that is a grade above him.My husbands disability has left it hard for me to hold a traditional job and still do everything needed to take care of my family. I am currently writing a book and just finished writing the lesson plans to 2 classes I plan on teaching. Life lessons( how to budget, clean, shop smart, cook good food cheap) and Remembering You (reclaiming your dreams and the right to love and care for yourself). I am hoping to make enough doing the classes to save up for a better home. As of this moment we have almost $300 after paying our immediate bills to last us the rest of the month.